Let's....

How should I put this..
Let it go..
Set it free..
At my own risk..
As much as I feel free..
In the end I'm in my own imprisonment of my heart..
You may see a smile spark from my face..
But at the end of the day..
I'm just that sad person always crying inside..
Always seeks happiness..
And the more I lived..
The more sadness builds around me..
So I think again..
If I can't find happiness within myself..
Let's find happiness with others..
It helps..
It does..
Feeling that comfort..
Feeling being needed..
Feeling alive..
But so happen my happiness with others..
Temporary..
Because at the end of the day..
I'm left alone again..
So again I think..
Thinking hard..
Let's find happiness in others..
It helps me too..
Happiness in others are happiness to me as well..
And with that..
I lived again..
But note this..
I'm still a sad person..
When I'm alone..
Always crying inside..
Always in the dark shadows..
With no lights..
No sunshine..
No rainbows..
No colours..
Just black..
Just white..
And all I asked for is..
Some colours..
Red..
Green..
Blue..
Anything..
I need to paint my picture..
Brightly again..
So please..
Help me..
Stay with me..
So please..
Understand me..
So...
Let's....

24th May 2010, 12:15pm
RedRulz

My heart speaks again..

How I've longed to see you again
And I'm glad we finally did
Reminiscing about the past
Sure it was fun
Seeing each other laugh again
Seems like nothing have change
We're still together
But I accept the fact
You're someone else
And I'm someone else
Two separate worlds
Two separate person
We chose our own path
Now we're walking through it
Your life now aren't the same
So is mine
But sure we shared a common thing
We need a friend
So I thank you for being there
I thank you for the time
I wish there some thing more we could do
But I guess we couldn't
Seems so right but it's wrong
Seems so wrong but it feels right
Contradiction that's me
Complicated that's me
I don't want to lose you
I need to let you go
But I need you
Standing by my side
As my friend
Hope you understand
So forgive me friend
Because this feelings will never end
So let us be
So stay with me

3rd May 2010,11:47AM,Monday

RedRulz

My heart speaks..

To someone very dear to me..

I live here on my knees
as I try to make you see
that you're everything I think
I need here on the ground
But you're neither friend nor foe
though I can't seem to let you go
The one thing that
I still know is that
you're keeping me down
You're on to me
and all over
Something always brings me back to you
It never takes too long

2nd May 2010, 11:40am, Sunday
RedRulz