First Step..

I've noticed that as time goes by, it seems like I've been updating lesser and lesser each month and not mentioning things that I've shouldn't be talking about. For example, my life. Haha! Then again, it is about my life and my rules so why should I give a damn about it if I ever want to talk about my life or whomsoever life that is.



So here I go again. It's been boring for the past few weeks not until now. Later today dated 18 August 2008 around afternoon hopefully after lunch I'll be going to an interview, like finally after like 8 bloody lame months. Well it's a job I've been thinking of going back. No not whoring. Not that I did before like EXCUSE me!



Let's just say it's my first real job in my life. Yeah. Coffee bean here I come. RedRulz gonna whip those cream.. Lame I know.. Hopefully the interview goes well and yes my dear Shewy if you're reading this, I'll serve you F.O.C. pasta if you ever visit my outlet. That is if I'm the only manager around. Haha.



Other than that nothing else troubling me just that I still feel trap like as if I'm being pinned down to the ground and being choked at the same time. It's like pilling up one by one, day by day. Luckily some part of me is still the same and should I say still sane.



As years goes by people change and people move on to another step and to another chapter in their lives. Like move on to better jobs to get a better pay, or pursuing a diploma or a degree to upgrade yourself for backup plans if something ever goes wrong, or getting married building a family to call your own and have kids and see them grow up and leading them to be a better person and all those really looks great.



As always there's always a but in what ever I say. But, will that happen to me in the near future? This year alone, two of my secondary school friends is already married. The dearest Mr. Hunk and the Ms. Smart that always tilt her head side ways when she's angry.



Looking at the current age now, I'm already 24 and so are they. Next year another two of my secondary school friends getting married too and it's kind of freaky seeing people move on with their life and I'm still stuck being me which always linger in the past and not moving forward.



I'm still stuck being just an 'O' level holder with 4 credits. A diploma dropout. No other skills. Not even a basic of formatting of a simple resume. Haha. I got to admit that yes I do learn about it but I totally forgot about it since I've only done it like, once in my poly years. Damn poly, I was so really determine to go back and I wasn't accepted.


Diploma first, now my family is bugging me to learn how to drive. When I told my family that I'm scared about driving because in my dream, I often dream that I'll have accident driving it. They will normally comfort me saying it's just a dream and normally it's always happen the opposite ways. So to make it simple the more accidents you dream, the safer your road will be. (Right..)


When I told my friends about my fears, they say then you shouldn't force yourself to take it if you have no confidence. Hmmm... Seems like I don't have support from my own friends. As much as I want them to say the same thing like how my family says, I guess I was wrong. So first battle between Family Vs Friends, 1 Family - 0 Friends. So I guess I'll take my driving license and yes my beloved Shewy and 2tie, we'll go to East Coast for dinner and yes I'll drive you guys around. Petrol is on you guys. Haha!


Hmmm.. Something struck me, I've been dreaming mostly are car crashes. So opposite is normally something smaller right? That means if I were to take a bike I'll experience the accidents? Hmm.. Bright side, bright side, they are just dreams.



So now what's troubling me? What's pinning me down to the ground and choking me at the same time making me difficult to breathe? Well, how do I juggle all of them?

1) Work

2) Oh I forgot to mention that next year I'm taking MDIS Information Technology that if I get the manager position at Coffee Bean.

3) Driving License.

4) Personal Family Affairs. (Yes, even a happy go lucky guy have internal family problems..)

So that just sums up everything.


But these are not the interesting thing that is about to happen. The interesting ones are the BANGKOK trip!! Yes, as from today it's like 4 days left!! Oh My Gawd! I love trips because trips means I'm free! Free from worries and burdens and it's like leaving everything behind and just bring yourself and PARTAY!! Yeah once you've come back from your holidays then you worried about it. Haha.


This Bangkok trip will be the first time ever with my close friends. Will be different from my Brunei and Taiwan trips because it's like with the army. Haha. Anyways, the suckiest part of this trip is that news have been reporting that there's a huge storm that is going to hit Bangkok between now and end of next month. HOW NICE! (that is what my Eagle Company of platoon 3 would say)


Yeah, strong winds, heavy rains and big waves like 4-5 meters high. Great,just great.Anyway I think this will be fun. I love strong winds and cold weather. So maybe it ain't that bad eh? At least if I were to die, I die happy. Right? Haha. Well what ever it is, hopefully the storm will not happen at all. Not this month not even next since it's the fasting month. Hopefully God is merciful to all of us.


Well then I better get going to rest as I got lots to talk about with the ADM. Haiz. I hope all goes well. Wish me luck.


RedRulz.